Turning ‘Meh’ into ‘Yay!’

Hi, my name is Byx, and I’m a game-aholic.


I was talking with my friend Jaedia the other day about burnout, etc with different games.

She had posted about feeling ‘meh’ about FFXIV, and I’m realizing I’m feeling the same way. It stinks how a game that once captivated me, I’m now just looking at with a bored feeling, logging in momentarily, then back out again. I want to like the game, I still do like the game, but I think I became too obsessed with it and am now feeling burn out. So I’m going to take a bit of time off, and come back a little after Heavensward comes out *nod*

What’s nice is I don’t have any obligations to any games, so I’m free to roam around as I like, spend as little or as much time in them as I want. Be as productive, or unproductive as I see fit. It’s a nice feeling.


Hi-Ho Warlock, AWAY
Hi-Ho Warlock, AWAY

My warlock is halfway through 96, I’m hoping to have her ding 100 at some point this week or next. I’ve began churning up gold via Treasure hunters and selling off the greens/random grays I get from salvage crates. My next alt up to 100 will be my Tauren warrior, after that I am torn between my druid and hunter. I’m enjoying the game again, which is a happy, good feeling! It felt awkward for the first couple days, but now I’m back into the groove!


lol hi
lol hi

I’ve been streaming (although not recently, okay only one day, but I’ll do more, LAY OFF ME) a play-through of Skyrim, but TO THE SURPRISE OF NO-ONE READING THIS I made another new character. I’ve always wanted to play through the game as a mage-type person, so I am attempting that. Thus far I’ve pretty much stuck to the sneaky archer type, so I’m going the fire and brimstone route. Well, conjurer probably, but still.


Even though I’ve played through the game countless times before, I still get that same rush of ‘Ooh, I can do whatever I want, yesss’. Main story quest? Pfft. Side quests? Pffft. I’m going to chase this fox through the forest, and go from there. I’m going to make a beeline to the Mage’s College, and start up that quest. I’m going to start killing random townspeople. Wait, no, murder is frowned upon, haha, sorry guard.


OOPS real life crafting is appearing in my blog! OH NO.

I’ve been working on a ginormous cross-stitch for my Mom and Evil Stepfather for Christmas. I’ve been posting the progress on Twitter, and I’ve got five of the twenty-nine panels complete. I love cross-stitching, I find it very soothing and calming, plus I can multitask and watch Netflix at the same time ^.^. It cuts into my gaming time, but it’s a fun hobby, so it’s okay. I’m finding the balance between the two, and reminding myself that my free time is my own. Dammit.


Short ‘fluff’ post today, but there ya go.


Back to the Routine

I’m back to Warcraft, and I’m pretty much doing the same thing I was doing before I left. I’m okay with that.

Listen here, you. I'm the Commander, k?
Listen here, you. I’m the Commander, k?

Garrisons, farting around on alts, pet battles. It’s pretty much the same game it was a little over two months ago, but it feels different. Maybe it’s because I’m a different person than I was, even just two months ago. If there’s one thing I’ve learned about being A Grown Up, it’s that life can change quickly or slowly, and you often times don’t have a ton of control over it. Sometimes it just happens, and you have to roll with it.

That's IT?! Featuring my guild's MOTD
That’s IT?! Featuring my guild’s MOTD

Yeah, I’m too tired and don’t have enough time to crop my photos, so enjoy my UI ^.^

The beauty of this game, as well as others, is that there is a lot to do. While not all of it appeals to everyone (I’m not a fan of PvP, for example), there are a lot of options to while away the time in. I’m actively trying to formulate a plan in which I earn enough in game gold to buy my game time, I have enough gold now for a couple months, so I’m taking some time to re-learn the game and figure out which way is *best* for me. I’ll probably end up doing a combination of treasure hunters/missions and running murderously through old raids for loot and such.

In a way it’s almost like I’m seeing the game from a different perspective. Taking time off was beneficial, as I’m enjoying my game time again!

I like not feeling pressured (by myself) to get all up in raid mode again, it’s been really fun to just do my thing. Life is stressful again, and it’s nice to have this familiar world in which to escape for an hour or so.

Also, Belfies.
Also, Belfies.

My voidwalker looks 1000000000000% done. And so am I! With this post.


HAVE A GREAT DAY here’s a cat gif


Let’s go on a Safari!

SCREENSHOT TIME for Murf’s post at Murf Versus for the Newbie Blogger Initiative! I haven’t been participating much this year, even though last year I was a “newbie” , I wanted to try to tag along and join in the fun. There’s always next year!

First up: Selfie!


She’s a cutie, my little Tauren warrior.

When Warcraft implemented the S.E.L.F.I.E. cam I was a little snarky about it, but now I’m obsessed. It shows off the new character models so well, and being able to do different emotes and have filters for it is super fun. Being able to share them on Twitter from within the game client is neat as well!

Next: Heroes or Villains!


She may be tiny, but she’s my little hero in FFXIV. Whether she is completing quests, helping out the locals, taking part in an epic story line that spans across the whole continent, or taking time out of the seriousness to goof off with friends or just explore.

Third: Landscape!


Mulgore is probably one of my favorite zones, and has such a nostalgic feel. My very first character I created in Warcraft was a Tauren Druid, and I spent so much time just flailing around in this zone way back in BC, learning what the hell I was doing before I finally ventured into the dangerous zone that was The Barrens. I played on a PvP server, got slaughtered so many times. Also, dangerous due to Barrens Chat *shudder*

The green hills, the mountains ringing the little snug and cozy valley, the animals roaming around, especially the packs of kodos, really made this zone feel so alive when I first started playing the game. I always enjoy questing through it on a Tauren, even though my time there is now usually very brief ^.^

Finally: The Scariest Place!


Skyrim is one of those games that manages to make me jump at silly times, like when I’m going through a cave and a Draugr pops open a tomb door and starts shuffling towards me, or when I’m minding my own business walking down the road at night and SUDDENLY BEAR.


There ya go! My four entries to the contest. May the best screenshotter win ^.^

Make a Dragon Wanna Retire, Man.


*chair dancing intensifies*

Anyways, back to the words.

You don't have to throw FISH AT ME
You don’t have to throw FISH AT ME


Meet Kyx.

She’s a rogue. She’s fun to play.

After two months away from the game, I figured I would take it slow re-entering the world, not jump right back into it feverishly. I logged on Byx and checked out her garrison, but was quickly overwhelmed by the state in which I left things. Her bags are overflowing with salvage crates, random greens everywhere. Instead of stressing myself out unnecessarily (after all, I came back to this game now because I thought it wouldn’t stress me out, so why drive myself crazy…), I did the inevitable and logged on a newly created alt, albeit one I created a few months ago.

Dramatic back lighting
Dramatic back lighting

I may (will probably) throw up a post at some point delving into the feels behind me returning to Warcraft, but this morning is not that morning!

Time Management is Fun

Now that summer is here, I’m finding I have Too Much To Do And Not Enough Time. Which is kind of fun. I have my blog (duh), various games, my fictional story thing I’m working on, my cross stitches, not to mention hanging out with real people in the real world and stuff, which I guess is a thing? I like to be organized, but I’m trying not to schedule my free time too much, as that’s slightly insane, and I’m not that crazy. I do have my “gaming notebooks” where I keep track of what I’m doing, and what I want to accomplish, but I’m not in any rush to do anything, and really, why force myself to do stuff. One of the main reasons I stepped back from Warcraft was feeling total apathy towards the game and my goals therein, so forcing myself to do things is only going to drive me away again.


I’ve been having a TON of fun in FFXIV, but one aspect of the game I haven’t messed with too much as of yet is crafting. I still feel like a newbie in that game, so I’m trying to get a grasp of just leveling my character in general before I split off into other areas of the game, but I’m learning that in that game alone there is A Lot To Do. I want to experience all of it, so I’m trying to keep myself on track and not branch off into every little thing, because then I won’t get anywhere! So far I’ve leveled damage dealing classes, I want to try tanking and healing but I’m kind of afraid of that too. I am lucky enough to have a really amazing grand company, so when the time comes I could probably find some friends to go with me and help me out. The low level dungeons don’t seem too tough insofar as mechanics go, and I’ve been in a bold and sassy mood lately, so I may be trying it out sooner than expected.

Real Life Update

I’m happy to report that life in general is much improved from a few months ago, for those of you that are keeping up with that. Some days are still a struggle, but in general I’m on the up and up, which is amazingly wonderful news. My parents are back from Florida where they were ensconced all winter, lucky bastards, and are now home and nagging me as usual ^.^

I’m working out more, trying to eat better, generally trying to improve myself as a human and listen to my body more. I let things slide a lot this winter, so trying to get back on track.

I’m wanting to stream more, I’ve been messing about with uploading my streams to YouTube but not sure if I’ll keep doing that or not, they seem to be too one-sided for that. Maybe I’ll try some let’s play videos? I need to get some graphics for my stream. (stream starting soon, follower tracker thinger, etc) HALP.


Oopsie gotta run, ENJOY YOUR DAY ❤

Yes, I’m Back.

I left for a variety of confusing, convoluted reasons that I thought only made sense to “me” (to later discover what I was feeling was actually quite normal); but returned yesterday because it felt like it was the right time to do so.


Sure, roll your eyes at me (or the length of this post) if you like, but this game (and the community I’ve become a part of) are important to me.

Have a lovely day =)




What, you’re still here? Oh right, cat .gif, sorry, yes.


I have to run WHERE?!

Good morning.

All copyrights to the appropriate people for the above.

In my real life adventures, I’ve (re)started the Couch to 5K program. I’ve found I really enjoy being outside, just me and my music. It’s nice challenging myself, and the only reason I’m restarting is because the first go around I mussed up a knee and was limping around for a week or two. I’m starting over again and taking it a bit slower, there is really no time limit to when I have to ‘complete’ this, it’s more of a personal challenge thing. So, uh. /pom poms and confetti

While I was out huffing and puffing along last night, I began thinking about how our video game characters stay in shape. We make them run all over the countryside, sometimes for hours at a time, and sure in a game where there are dragons and giant spiders and you can throw fire around, you can suspend the disbelief of certain things. However, due to the way my brain works, I got to thinking about this topic.

Are there running groups in Eorzea? Gyms in Warcraft? Treadmills in the inns of Skyrim? In most MMO’s, you’re bringing your character up from nothing to making them super powerful. Sure, in the leveling process you get stats, increased abilities, stronger and better armor, but what if you character has shin splints? Hyper extended their knee? Wore the same pair of boots too long that the soles wore out, and now their feet hurt but OMG I have to run across the continent I guess. Another side to the coin, say your character does get their stamina up, what happens when they get a mount? Do they become less in-shape? Do they then have to spend time working out?

This might be more on the role-playing side of things, but it’s a humorous idea to me, the thought of a mighty hero grumbling as they hop on the treadmill for a bit, or practicing swordplay with a friend, or even a stranger at a random town in the middle of nowhere. What makes me giggle like a child is the thought of my Lalafell in FFXIV tottering along on a treadmill. Or do Lalafells have wheels, like hamsters? Now I’m laughing, oops.

Can I run if I have no legs?
Can I run if I have no legs?

IN OTHER (real life) NEWS

I am so happy to not have classes for the first summer session at the college I attend. It is giving me a chance to breathe and to be able to have that nice thing we call free time. My parents are home from Florida (yay) and I’m excited to Do Stuff for a bit this summer, until the second summer session kicks off in early July.

I’m steadily plugging away at the massive cross-stitch I’m sewing for my parentals for Christmas, I’ve gotten 3/29 panels done, averaging about a panel a week, haha. Cross-stitching is incredibly soothing for me, and the bonus is that I can watch Netflix or listen to podcasts while I’m doing it, yay multi tasking!

I’m also trying to get my cat used to walking with me while wearing his harness and leash, although currently the leash is still in the OMG STRING category, and it’s more of a playtime event than anything else, which is fine ^.^

treadmill cat
Too much energy, mister (or missus), take it down a notch.


I’m realizing my posts are fairly short, but once I’ve gotten my point across… what else is there to talk about? Have any of you ever thought about this, or am I the only crazy one?

I hope you all enjoy your day!

Watch me Mine!

My latest craze has been Minecraft.

This game is pretty much a constant one for me, but one that I have yet to ‘beat’ insofar as going into the nether and fighting the dragon, or whatever the kids do nowadays.

It's raaaaaaaaaaining
It’s raaaaaaaaaaining

Me? I like to build. I don’t build anything crazy fancy, usually I just try to find a village and build a wall around it, ensuring I have a steady food supply and creepy friends to hang out with and protect from zombies and such.


This game is one of those that I am obsessed with for a couple months, then I get bored with it or just move on to something else, and don’t touch it for months at a time. The inevitable always occurs, and I open up one of my old worlds in vain and try to remember what I was doing, but usually wander around in a state of dismay as I wonder why the hell I put that thing there, what I was thinking building THAT, etc.

Home Sweet Home.. Until I build my TOWER
Home Sweet Home.. Until I build my TOWER

This game is a fun one because you can play it just like a sandbox in creative mode, and build whatever the frick frack you want, or you can run around in survival mode and play it almost like an RPG. What’s neat about this game is it’s been around forever, and there have been so many mods and servers created to adapt to different play styles. I enjoy the RPG-esque atmosphere, traversing the countryside in search of food, supplies to build shelter, luring farm animals back to my enclosures. I like finding temples or dungeons, poking around in there and hopefully not dying to traps while I search out the loot.

I like upgrading my character, crafting her armor, building the enchanting table, enchanting my weapons, armor, and tools. I really like building my base, making it look pleasant, having a different building specific to different things (forge, enchanting hut, storage sheds, etc). I especially find mining and leveling or moving dirt around very soothing. It’s almost like a control thing, in a way. I can define and re-shape the landscape to how I want it to be, and no-one except maybe Endermen will mess with it.

Also, having rainbow-colored sheep roaming about is fun.
Also, having rainbow-colored sheep roaming about is fun.

For those of you who follow me on Twitter, I hope you’re enjoying watching my descent into madness, but I’m sure you’ve seen me talking a lot (too much? Oh well) about streaming and my fears and anxiety tied in with that. I know there is no easy fix for me to get over that, it will just take time and persistence, and luckily enough I have awesome people that support me and cheer me on, which helps so very much.

Streaming a game like Minecraft is relatively easy because most of the stuff I do (level the land to make it look a certain way, mine, build random things) I can do without really thinking about it, so if there is someone in chat I can carry on a conversation relatively easy.


Today’s been a short post, yeah, but that’s all I have, so that’s all you get.

Go forth and conquer the day, my dears ❤

You...Can... Do.. It... YES.
You…Can… Do.. It… YES.


G’morning! This will begin a fun experiment in which I type up my post the night before, skim it over in the morning, and post it! And hopefully not hate it and want to start all over. My mid-first-cup-of-coffee posts are fun and all, but aren’t- uh, how do you say- coherent.



Everyone talks about community in every game, whether it’s good or bad. It seems as though it’s an easy thing to define, to pin down, but is it? Let’s pick on one game, as an example:

World of Warcraft has millions of players, all across the world, that log in every day and enjoy the heck out of the game. That person probably belongs to a guild, they probably have friends that play the game as well, they are on a server where tons of other people play, and they’re playing a game which people devote a lot of time and energy to. Each of these circles is it’s own community inside a larger community inside a larger… you get the idea. I don’t want this example of Warcraft to stand as my solo example of community in games, it’s just the game I’m most familiar with, so I reference it a lot!

Not every single person agrees about every single thing. That’s part of human nature. Problems arise, however, when people that disagree with other people take it to the extreme. Yes, to me it is just a game, and I am able to separate out the game from real life, and understand there are real people sitting behind the pixels. To some people this game is very much a part of their livelihood, so it makes sense that they would be able to (hopefully) do the same, but take it a bit more seriously, or be a lot more in tune to the game, or the community in general. There are some people who just take it far too seriously, and can’t seem to separate real life from the pixels. I went through a period of time (a few years ago) myself where I was more like this, it didn’t last long, but I wasn’t able to ever really ‘log out’ of the game and enjoy life.

When I’m at home, I am pretty much on Twitter all the time (maybe too much =P). There is constantly A Discussion happening, whether good or bad, productive or silly, about any manner of games, really. Usually these are happening when I’m busy elsewhere, and I just see snippets of them, but when I do see them happening, a lot of times I’m afraid to chime in, even if I have something to say, or even if the conversation is happening between people that I interact with a lot, or that I’m good friends with. I’ve talked about my anxiety before, how I hold myself back and I’m my own worst critic. I know I have valid points, and can partake in conversations, but I’m almost more apt to have them in private, or not for all of my/our followers or guild chat to see. I am a lot better than I used to be, however, and I have my little community to thank for that.

A good community can make me stay in a game, a nonexistent or toxic one can make me quit and uninstall very quickly. I’ve been lucky enough to only run across the latter a couple times, and they’ve been smaller games, and more nonexistent than toxic. Just the same, a good community can make me stay in that community, whether it be my circle of blogger friends, gaming friends, crafting friends, or real life people that I guess I should interact with like my family.

I surround myself with good, supportive, fun people, and cut all negativity out of my life where I can. Life’s too short to get mad at someone on the internet, and sometimes a simple unfollow or block can save you a world of headaches or hurt.

This week marks a special occasion in my books, it has been one year since I’ve met some very awesome people who have quickly become a huge part of my life. It honestly means so much more, as a girl who never really had a ton of friends growing up, to have all these amazing people that I can call that. Unfortunately, all of you are all over the damn world, and I may not meet a lot of you in real life! Fortunately, I have met the above mentioned people who live a short drive away, and it’s so fun to hang out and geek out with them at our houses, versus sitting in front of the computer and typing away, or talking in voice chat.

It’s really interesting to me how the world and society changes, how a lot of us take for granted that we can log into a game and instantly talk with our friends and guild mates who are scattered across the globe, have jobs in all different fields, believe in so many different religions (or not), and are just so different, but yet we are all united by this common thing, whether it be Warcraft, FFXIV, or even games that aren’t normally considered MMO’s, such as Minecraft, Dragon Age series, or other ‘single player’ games.

Thanks for reading, go forth and conquer the day!

Get out of bed ya lazy-aww
Get out of bed ya lazy-aww

Feeling Detached

This week has been a rough one for me. I’ve talked about it in other blog posts, and those close to me know why, but this week has been a super emotional roller coaster. Not for any particular reason, in fact most of it is my mind stressing me out, but it is what it is, and this week I couldn’t be arsed to fight it or care. Which brings me to my point.

I’m finding I no longer care as much as I once did about Warcraft.

I’ve been un-subbed for a couple months now, and just a couple days ago, actually uninstalled the game. I’ve gone through cycles like this before, and I know it’s probably not a forever thing, but for right now, I’m done.

When I see people conversing on social media about some new thing, or even get in a debate about something that’s been around forever, part of me wants to chime in, but I always feel like the first reaction to me saying something is “Well, Byx, you aren’t even subbed.” I know this is my anxiety talking, 100%, but that’s the first thing I think of. Since I’m not actively playing the game, I feel as though I can’t actively discuss it. Which is baloney, but again we come back to the point of me kind of not caring anyways. I know my opinions are valid, I was actually recently on a podcast a good friend hosted where we talked about Garrisons, which was actually kind of fun and different, but it’s almost like there are conversations happening on the other side of a room, and I have to move past obstacles to get there to participate, and I can’t bring up the energy to do so.

Warcraft will always hold a special place in my heart, I have met so many amazing people through this game and had so many fun experiences, made so many great memories. For right now though, I’m feeling extremely detached and not a part of the World.

I could go on and on about this, but I would be talking (typing?) in circles, and I’ve kind of said what I wanted to say.

Take care =)

Wanna FIGHT?!

DO YA?!?!?!
DO YA?!?!?!

“Though she is but little, she is fierce.” -Shakespeare

You got that right, mister!


Real life update: classes are winding down for me, just one more final to go and I am done with this semester! I’ve decided to opt out of classes for the first summer session, but will be taking some for the second session, before rolling right into the fall semester. I want to get this degree done, but I also want to have some of the summer off ^.^ Now then, back to what everyone really (maybe) cares about- GAMING!!!

I have been having the best time leveling my Lalafell-formerly-known-as-Hot-Elf-Babe in FFXIV. On a whim I used a Potion of Fantasia, which is a one-time use item that lets you alter your character completely (race, gender, appearance) for free. I received the potion as part of the recruit a friend system.

Just a wee lass
Just a wee lass

I am a huge MMO fan, but most of the MMOs I’ve played have been western titles, such as Warcraft and the Guild Wars games. This is my first serious foray into eastern style games, and I have to say, I’m thoroughly enchanted. The altoholic in me is not a huge fan, but I do really like the aspect of gameplay that allows your one character to be any class in game. All you have to do is swap out your weapon, and your attributes, skills, and the class are switched over automatically. Where this ties into gameplay is there are cross-class abilities available.

I’ve been leveling my character as an archer, if you couldn’t tell by the bow in the above picture. With that class she is currently 28 I believe, but I am beginning to struggle a bit in the scenario-based quests, where it pits you up against more challenging mobs with the aid of NPC’s. After talking with my Grand Company (as I do often, sorry not sorry for all the questions, but I have no idea what I’m doing ever, so…) a couple suggested that I take up another class and level it up to take advantage of the cross-class abilities, such as heals or defensive spells.

Ergo, I am leveling a Pugilist. Basically, I run around and punch things. Adorably. Because I’m a teeny Lalafell. More pictures? KAY.


The feather in her hair is another part of the recruit a friend program, if I recall correctly it boosts experience across all classes up to a certain level, but doesn’t have much going for it stat-wise. However, since my goal at the moment is only to get the Pugilist to level 15, I’m not overly concerned about it. The game also has a very cool armory built into it, with the ability to save armor sets and swap between them at a click of a button, much like Warcraft.

I just find it highly amusing that I can go from this (somewhat) powerful and BA archer to a wee widdle newbie at a class, running around in stat-less gear, doing the “go here and kill x amount of these then come back, okay thanks” quests. I’m also still not used to my character looking and feeling so different, and it makes me smile that my adorable, chibi-like Lalafell is so scrappy.

Don’t MESS WITH HER. Really, don’t. This picture is terrifying.

oh god


Okie doke I think that’s enough out of me for today. Have a good one =)