This week has been a rough one for me. I’ve talked about it in other blog posts, and those close to me know why, but this week has been a super emotional roller coaster. Not for any particular reason, in fact most of it is my mind stressing me out, but it is what it is, and this week I couldn’t be arsed to fight it or care. Which brings me to my point.
I’m finding I no longer care as much as I once did about Warcraft.
I’ve been un-subbed for a couple months now, and just a couple days ago, actually uninstalled the game. I’ve gone through cycles like this before, and I know it’s probably not a forever thing, but for right now, I’m done.
When I see people conversing on social media about some new thing, or even get in a debate about something that’s been around forever, part of me wants to chime in, but I always feel like the first reaction to me saying something is “Well, Byx, you aren’t even subbed.” I know this is my anxiety talking, 100%, but that’s the first thing I think of. Since I’m not actively playing the game, I feel as though I can’t actively discuss it. Which is baloney, but again we come back to the point of me kind of not caring anyways. I know my opinions are valid, I was actually recently on a podcast a good friend hosted where we talked about Garrisons, which was actually kind of fun and different, but it’s almost like there are conversations happening on the other side of a room, and I have to move past obstacles to get there to participate, and I can’t bring up the energy to do so.
Warcraft will always hold a special place in my heart, I have met so many amazing people through this game and had so many fun experiences, made so many great memories. For right now though, I’m feeling extremely detached and not a part of the World.
I could go on and on about this, but I would be talking (typing?) in circles, and I’ve kind of said what I wanted to say.
Take care =)