This morning, as it happens almost every morning, I feel the want to write a blog post. In contrast to most mornings, I vocalized my thoughts on Twitter and the inevitable happened.
With friends like these… ❤
Motivation is a funny thing. Everyone reacts differently to it, and it drives us to change things, or not, in varying degrees. There’s a lot that ties into motivation, that can stop one from doing something. Fear of change, the thought of failure, of rejection, or even of accomplishment. If I do the thing, and I do well at the thing, will people expect more? Will I expect more of myself? Yes, this ties into blogging as well.
My recent thoughts as to why I shouldn’t blog is that I’ve been in a kind of negative frame of mind lately. I don’t want every blog post to be me whining about something, or speaking dejectedly about what I wish something to be. It’s still my voice though, my thoughts, and what I’ve come to realize is by putting those thoughts down on the screen, or on paper if I draft out my post long-hand before I type it up, is that sometimes I can change my own way of thinking by the end of the post. Sometimes this makes me feel like I’m writing the post for no reason, but there was a reason, even if that was to simply change the way I viewed something.
I’m not here to write guides, to tell you how to play your game. I’m here to share my experiences and thoughts with the interwebs, to take conversations I participate in or see online and continue them, or comment on them, in a longer form than is merited on social media or in chat boxes in MMO’s.
I always try to tie in what I’m doing IRL also, as I think it’s important to know there is a real human sitting here typing these out. I know this is a ‘gaming blog’, but I am a gamer, so I write about myself a bit too. My interests are varied (I’m in college, I currently work two jobs, I cross-stitch, I have a psychopathic adorable floofy cat, I try to be social with friends, I’m in many fandoms) and I try to keep this blog varied as well with the games and topics I speak about. I occasionally will try to write the motivational blog post, but most of my posts are the seat of the pants, stream of consciousness writing. I feel like this is more conversational, and it’s more fun for me to write.
Over the year I’ve been blogging, I’ve learned a lot about myself, and about what motivates me. I’ve tried to do many Things, whether it be following a character as I level it, or consistently write about a game and my progress through it, but I seem to never be able to keep up with it. This is something that I want to try to do better at, as continuity is a wonderful thing, and helps my readers as well as the author =P.
Lately I’ve been playing a lot of The Sims 4- it’s a game that I can kind of let do its own thing, and putter around the house, and come back to it when my Sims start yelling about something. I’ve created a Sim that I’ll be playing exclusively when I stream, as well as creating my friends because it’s fun and somewhat creepy and awkward to control their lives. I’ve been playing FFXIV also, putter around in D3 some, and I want to get back into Skyrim. Oh, I’m also forever trying to remember what rhythm is and progress in Crypt of the Necrodancer ^.^
I’ve gone off track, where was I? Oh yes.
So what motivates me to write? A helluva lot, apparently.